Gotta suck to not suck

Dear Blog Diary,

Come into my little world.

So one of my new pointless projects that is so silly but brings so much joy…I’m developing my cheese palette. Every week I pick out a new cheese, take notes, and enjoy.

I’ve just recently discovered Dave Brubeck and Chick Corea. I play albums when I cook. For those who are as ignorant as me, these are jazz musician.

My friend Kappa has been taking me disc golfing. It’s fun as hell and taken the slot of my purely fun activity.

Coming off my just-for-fun activity list is climbing. All my pants are try-hard pants now.

I find myself indulging my curiosities but primarily from a perspective of pure ignorance. It’s liberating.

Of course I eat cheese but cheese is a component of a dish or something that bougie girls use to make charcuterie boards. I never seek it and definitely don’t just eat it by itself. You ever think about it – name me a single asian dish that has cheese in it. Just doesn’t show up.

Jazz is something you listen to while drinking cocktails. It’s an improvised music yet it all sounds the same to me. Still, play Tank from Cowboy Bebop and I can run through a brick wall while smoking a cigarette in space for my main man Spike.

Disc golf, I just thought that was something stoners do in the woods. – fairly accurate. Sign me up.

Climbing is one that I’m so ignorantly familiar with. I’ve been doing it for many years and I’ve never taken it seriously. No ambition, purely fun. When it gets hard and my hands are beat up – I quit (that’s what she said). My brother is teaching me the way and although it’s never going to be top tier on my list of passions, it’s game time.

I find this entire process riveting. I am just above a neanderthal in most things in life and most of us don’t know shit about 95% of everything. The learning is fun and the experiencing is better. I found myself fighting back tears as I got to see my brother instruct in something he’s spent over a decade dedicating a large portion of himself to.

The first stage of not sucking at something is sucking at it. Keep going and kill your ego.

The only reason your ego feels good about those things is because at the time, it didn't exist.

E

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